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[weiyingdown]

[his voice is low, nearly a whisper]

It's...hard to say yes if I don't know you want to.

[one_note]

[also low]

Always want to.

[weiyingdown]

Always?

[he already said it once, so it feels redundant to make him repeat himself. but he's anxious; it's too hard to believe]

[one_note]

Always want you.

[weiyingdown]

But don't you have...

[trails off, too unsure to finish that sentence. he can't fit the pieces together: desiring someone, being partners with someone, facing life beside them isn't the same as loving them. and Lan Wangji already has someone he loves. it would be too arrogant, even now, to think that love might be given to him]

...someone...else...?

[one_note]

[he

says absolutely nothing?

oh no]

[weiyingdown]

[HELPFULLY CLARIFIES]

You have someone you love. I don't want to get in the way of that, if it comes up in the future.

[one_note]

Will not.

[weiyingdown]

What makes you so sure?

[there is the chance that Lan Wangji's love has passed away, but who could he have loved that passed?]

[one_note]

I am sure.

[he clarifies, helpfully]

[weiyingdown]

[sighs, only a little bit of exasperation in there as he exhales]

Then I have no choice but to believe you! What a lucky person, to have Hanguang-Jun's affection.

[one_note]

[he hears the exasperation; cups Wei Wuxian's cheek, heart in his throat...]

[weiyingdown]

[surprise flickers on his face at the touch, searching Lan Wangji's face for upset]

I didn't mean it badly. I do believe you!

[one_note]

[there is not so much upset as sadness, but it might be hard to tell the difference]

All right.

[weiyingdown]

[he does struggle to tell the difference; he hasn't gotten too much better at reading his face during their time here, but he can pick up on shifts in expression even if he isn't sure of their meaning.

closes his eyes, feeling the warmth of the hand on his cheek]

They are quite lucky. I mean that sincerely.

[one_note]

[his mouth works a little bit, completely unseen; trying to say it, unable to]

...

[weiyingdown]

[listens to the clamoring of both of their hearts together, skin against skin; wishing he could say it, but unable to. he tips his head to kiss Lan Wangji's wrist instead, offering it as a gesture of reassurance]

I'm lucky too.

[one_note]

[in the end, feeling that warmth against his wrist:]

Want you to be happy.

[weiyingdown]

[keeps kissing his wrist, his palm, his fingers]

I am happy. Did I not show my enthusiasm enough earlier? I can show you again if you'd like.

[one_note]

[his fingers twitch against Wei Wuxian's mouth, one tracing his lower lip. he'd like that, he thinks hazily, though his hum is wordless again. he likes being with Wei Wuxian so much...]

[weiyingdown]

[doesn't do more than that; sits up instead, propped up by his elbows to look down at him]

You have to come with me first. We can make as much of a mess as we want, but I get to clean you up too.

[one_note]

[blinks up at him, cat-slow and languid]

Will go where you wish.

[weiyingdown]

It's not far! Just to the bathroom. Should I carry you~?

[gets off the bed with enough leisure that Lan Wangji has enough time to protest, if he wants; if he doesn't, then Wei Wuxian is going to scoop him up into his arms. his strength isn't anything to brag about--he's still too skinny, hasn't build up much muscle, and is mostly coreless--but he can manage to carry him to the bathroom with no trouble]

[one_note]

[this is extremely undignified. impassively allows it, because Wei Wuxian is being so cute]

[weiyingdown]

[he is SO pleased about being able to carry Lan Wangji into the bathroom too. the bathroom also got a makeover when he redid his bedroom and piled it full of plants; it's basically just a lotus pond with a gazebo in the middle that is partitioned off with the toilet and a tub

he deposits Lan Wangji into the empty tub and turns on the faucet, filling it with warm water]