[it is hard to say: is it not? when you gain and lose memory it is so easy for such things to slip or to be charged differently. he has not lost faith, but certainly he is more afraid than he was before a journey to faerieland.]
[he does put it into words, because he can, because he's had plenty of time to say them to his husband over and over and over again.]
Lan Zhan. You mean the world to me. In this life or any other I would find you and love you all over again. You being with more is more than I could ever ask for. Setting aside any impulsive wishes...I can only do those kinds of things because you're with me. I'll say it over and over again, as many times as I need to if you want to hear it.
[repeats it with the same emotion behind it. his heart aches at how tender Lan Wangji is at the sentiment, scrubbed raw by fraught experience; he wants to keep him tucked safe, build back up their easy understanding. he knows that this won't last, though, and that this is all he can do]
[it doesn't matter that this Wei Wuxian isn't exactly his, either; in a way, he's speaking to all of them, however many of them there might be in the strangeness of timelines and other worlds.]
[Wei Wuxian is a different kind of greedy: he doesn't mind Lan Zhans being with their Wei Yings and knows they're content when more or less paired up without any confusion. but he loves every Lan Zhan, and given the opportunity will keep them all for himself and work out the details later]
Ahhh, I might be too impatient for that. I'll wait, but if you take too long I'll come and find you myself.
Why not? If it's a wish you're after, you can work on getting it here instead. I can't say how Lan Zhan would feel about all of the extra company, but I'm sure he'd get used to it.
I know there are other circumstances involved. But if I tell Lan Zhan about you then he's going to want to meet you too, so I can only ask that you don't keep us waiting forever.
I can't believe you have the face to say that when you've already broken plenty of rules.
[fake sulking in that way where he is not actually complaining. he does sweep Lan Wangji's hair over one shoulder and start twisting strands around until it vaguely resembles a very messy flower]
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[it is hard to say: is it not? when you gain and lose memory it is so easy for such things to slip or to be charged differently. he has not lost faith, but certainly he is more afraid than he was before a journey to faerieland.]
With me.
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It isn't. No matter where you go or end up. I'm here.
[presses a hand to his head]
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crushes him close again; the words hit like a blow]
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he keeps murmuring Wei Ying quietly into his hair.]
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Lan Zhan. You mean the world to me. In this life or any other I would find you and love you all over again. You being with more is more than I could ever ask for. Setting aside any impulsive wishes...I can only do those kinds of things because you're with me. I'll say it over and over again, as many times as I need to if you want to hear it.
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Love you.
[but Wei Wuxian can feel the sentiment behind it; just how much his words mean.]
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[repeats it with the same emotion behind it. his heart aches at how tender Lan Wangji is at the sentiment, scrubbed raw by fraught experience; he wants to keep him tucked safe, build back up their easy understanding. he knows that this won't last, though, and that this is all he can do]
I always will.
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[it doesn't matter that this Wei Wuxian isn't exactly his, either; in a way, he's speaking to all of them, however many of them there might be in the strangeness of timelines and other worlds.]
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Ahhh, I might be too impatient for that. I'll wait, but if you take too long I'll come and find you myself.
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Yourself?
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...
It would not be bad.
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"That is a wonderful idea, Wei Ying, and I will bring my Wei Yings with me as long as you promise to behave and not toss them into the canal."
Why, I'm glad you think so Lan Zhan! You drive a hard bargain, but I think I can manage that much, because I love you.
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Mm.
But I will try not to take too long.
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[presses his lips to his forehead, gentle; a promise]
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Don't do too much of that or I'll want to keep you.
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[fake sulking in that way where he is not actually complaining. he does sweep Lan Wangji's hair over one shoulder and start twisting strands around until it vaguely resembles a very messy flower]
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I know. Never that one. Don't listen to my teasing if it's going too far, hmm? I'm too used to Lan Zhan offering up punishment if I push things.
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Not too far.
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