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[the long pauses continue]

I do not know what to do.

[weiyingdown]

[he is fine with waiting, he just sits there and stares at his screen until a reply pops up. it's chill.]

neither do I. figuring out what went wrong seemed like a place to begin.

[one_note]

Hard to watch you leave.

Or dissemble.

Do not know what to say, to help. Or do.

[weiyingdown]

I thought it would be better to give you space to talk since it was about his worries. obviously I misunderstood the situation.

if it's something like that you can just tell me to stay. I know that's only asking more of you, but I can't think of any other way to deal with it. unless you have a better idea.

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I am afraid.

[there's a couple of 'typing' notifications after that one, but they peter out, like he's already run out of words again]

[weiyingdown]

is it a fear I've seen recently, or a different one?

[if it's one he's seen from the game he can at least figure things out from there, even if Lan Wangji is struggling to articulate]

[one_note]

Both.

[he doesn't face either Wei Wuxian with less than the sum total of their experiences together, that he remembers.]

[weiyingdown]

I don't know how to help if I only know some of it. can you tell me the parts I don't know?

[one_note]

I do not know.

[weiyingdown]

what am I supposed to do if I don't know how to help?

[one_note]

[STARES BLANKLY AT HIS OWN PHONE INSTEAD OF ANSWERING THAT ONE]

[weiyingdown]

[BURIES HIS FACE IN HIS ARMS

takes a few deep breaths and tries to pull himself together

it still takes a while for him to follow that up]

I keep messing this up.
I'm sorry.
talking too much didn't help and talking less had as much success.
I don't know how to make it better.

[one_note]

Cannot advise.

On how to fix with words.

Have never succeeded.

[weiyingdown]

then, what kind of action will do?

[one_note]

[...]

Do what you wish.

[weiyingdown]

that's what I'm doing already.

[one_note]

Yes.

[weiyingdown]

should I keep doing what I please even if you hate it?

[one_note]

Preference should not shackle.

[weiyingdown]

stating a preference isn't anything close to a shackle.

[one_note]

Is it not?

[weiyingdown]

it's not! what if we'd both prefer the same thing, but neither of us says it because we don't want to impose on the other? or what if there's something I do that you don't like, but I don't care about it either way and I'd prefer you be happy than do that one little thing?

[one_note]

And when it cannot be said?

Or has been disregarded?

[weiyingdown]

you try again.

[one_note]

[._.]

Not simple.