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[day 23]

[weiyingdown]

[sometime after he leaves the Courtyard, Wei Wuxian goes looking for Lan Wangji. he doesn't text him right away--first he tries looking in the usual spaces: around the cottages, in the garden, at the edge of the world where clouds meet sky]

[one_note]

[he's ensconced very quietly somewhere at the edge again, but in a more blocked-off spot than last time; Wei Wuxian might or might not glimpse a little of the whites and greens of his clothing through the screening foliage. your choice.]

[weiyingdown]

[he does spot him--the flash of white is enough to stand out as he's searching. but he doesn't immediately approach. instead, he ducks behind a portion of the maze and texts him. that worked last time]

Hanguang-Jun. are you okay?

[one_note]

[it's a while before he's answered]

No.

[weiyingdown]

I know it was a bad question to ask. but I didn't know where else to start. will you tell me what I did to upset you?

[one_note]

[the long pauses continue]

I do not know what to do.

[weiyingdown]

[he is fine with waiting, he just sits there and stares at his screen until a reply pops up. it's chill.]

neither do I. figuring out what went wrong seemed like a place to begin.

[one_note]

Hard to watch you leave.

Or dissemble.

Do not know what to say, to help. Or do.

[weiyingdown]

I thought it would be better to give you space to talk since it was about his worries. obviously I misunderstood the situation.

if it's something like that you can just tell me to stay. I know that's only asking more of you, but I can't think of any other way to deal with it. unless you have a better idea.

[one_note]

I am afraid.

[there's a couple of 'typing' notifications after that one, but they peter out, like he's already run out of words again]

[weiyingdown]

is it a fear I've seen recently, or a different one?

[if it's one he's seen from the game he can at least figure things out from there, even if Lan Wangji is struggling to articulate]

[one_note]

Both.

[he doesn't face either Wei Wuxian with less than the sum total of their experiences together, that he remembers.]

[weiyingdown]

I don't know how to help if I only know some of it. can you tell me the parts I don't know?

[one_note]

I do not know.

[weiyingdown]

what am I supposed to do if I don't know how to help?

[one_note]

[STARES BLANKLY AT HIS OWN PHONE INSTEAD OF ANSWERING THAT ONE]

[weiyingdown]

[BURIES HIS FACE IN HIS ARMS

takes a few deep breaths and tries to pull himself together

it still takes a while for him to follow that up]

I keep messing this up.
I'm sorry.
talking too much didn't help and talking less had as much success.
I don't know how to make it better.

[one_note]

Cannot advise.

On how to fix with words.

Have never succeeded.

[weiyingdown]

then, what kind of action will do?

[one_note]

[...]

Do what you wish.

[weiyingdown]

that's what I'm doing already.

[one_note]

Yes.

[weiyingdown]

should I keep doing what I please even if you hate it?

[one_note]

Preference should not shackle.

[weiyingdown]

stating a preference isn't anything close to a shackle.